the resignation from fear

_{DAY 23 OF MY CREATIVE WRITING JOURNEY. THE PROMPT WAS TO CONTINUE WRITING AFTER THE SENTENCE ENDS ‘“HOW DOES ONE FIND COURAGE TO DO SOMETHING EXTRAORDINARILY COURAGEOUS THAT IS ILLOGICAL TO others?” SHE ASKED HERSELF.’}

“How does one find the courage to do something extraordinarily courageous that is illogical to others?” she asked herself before pressing the send button of her email.

She thought about it for a couple of moments and began staring into space.

It was the email to resign from the firm where she had worked for the last 13 years.

It was like a second home. But this home of hers had been crumbling piece by piece since her colleagues knew that she was leaving.

She had decided to take photographs of street artists and tell their stories in a blog with no monetization strategy in place. It was like jumping in the dark. She didn’t have huge savings but some faith in herself.

There is no more dangerous person for the status quo than the one who believes in oneself.

Did her act of taking control of her life challenge her peers? If it did, she didn’t know.

She was as vulnerable as a mother in her first few weeks of unplanned pregnancy.

Like such a mother, she sensed a dramatic change in the behavior of her colleagues towards her.

First, they tried to make her feel that they were with her all the way. Then some of them tried to make her believe that she should not behave emotionally and tried to instill doubts in her.

Eventually, when she didn’t accept their common wisdom, they termed her as a person becoming increasingly emotionally unstable.

It was really difficult for her to digest such a response from her peers as she expected to seek support from them, not this.

For a moment, she even reconsidered her decision. But it dawned upon her that her colleagues are simple people like her, dealing with their own monsters, and any weird or strange thing like jumping in the dark scares them.

In that moment, she got a newfound courage to send her resignation letter.

PS – This is the 23rd day of my journey to write everyday for next one year.

shoes and habits

_{DAY 22 OF MY CREATIVE WRITING JOURNEY. THE PROMPT WAS to continue writing after the sentence ends ‘WHY IT IS HARD TO BUILD HABITS AND BREAK THEM,”SHE ASKED HERSELF’.}

“Why it is hard to build habits and break them,” she asked herself while tying her shoes for her evening walk.

It was not easy for her to walk that day. It was the 21^st day of her commitment to walk everyday for 365 days.

She woke up quite late and then started working on the emergency project given to her at work.

By the end of the day, she was so tired that she fell asleep.

She didn’t even realize that by the time she woke for dinner it was already 11PM.

It was not suitable for her to go out for a walk that day.

At that moment, she pondered over the myth of 21 days. It goes like this – if you do something everyday for 21 days, it becomes your habit.

She never believed in any of such things but coincidently it was her 21^st day and she was about to break the habit of walking.

After thinking for a couple of seconds, she put on her shoes and walked for about 40 minutes in her living room.

“Was it worth doing?” she asked herself as she finished walking for forty minutes.

“Maybe not but by pushing yourself to do this fruitless walk for keeping your routine, you have boosted your level of commitment and strengthen your resolve to keep doing it when the odds are against you.” she replied to herself and patted her back.

PS – This is the 22nd day of my journey to write everyday for next one year.

why this blog?

Hey folks,

I hope you are doing fine in your lives. I sincerely thank you for coming over and starting a conversation. It means a lot to me.

The reason to start this blog is to have meaningful conversations about love, life and lost dreams.

The purpose is to create a space where we can have conversations without judging each other, without hating each other, without hurting each other.

The idea is to tell stories that we often delete because we think the audience and space aren’t right.

So, here we will try to be the audience that we wish to get for our audience and tell our stories that are close to our hearts.

Feel free to share your story at thedeletedstory@gmail.com or just post in the comment section.